I've decided each week to talk a bit about my previous week and what I enjoyed reading and watching, my plans for the coming week and any news I have. Hopefully that will motivate me to get things done!
This was the week from hell. As most of you will know in January my mum was diagnosed with stomach cancer and she has been in hospital a few times. I've had messages this week from friends wondering why I wasn't online so I decided to use my Musings post to update everything.
My mum went in to hospital on the 13th May with an infection and soon became confused, disorientated and off the planet. It got worse over the space of a few days until she did not even recognise her family. Last Thursday the doctor said she either had bleeding on the brain, a stroke or the cancer was in her brain and they gave her days to live. That Thursday and Friday were the worst two days of my life, sitting by her bedside sobbing, lying awake at night waiting for a call from the hospital to say she had passed away. My dad and I were suffering, watching her lying in her bed yelling for help with no clue where she was, struggling as if she was being attacked. I can't even describe that experience. It gave me an idea of what the families of dementia sufferers go through and I wouldn't wish that on anybody. When we were away from the hospital we kept phoning to see what was happening, dreading what we might hear.
Then we phoned the hospital on Sunday morning to be told that she was sitting up talking, eating a little, drinking and her mind in full working order and that the CT scan of her brain showed NOTHING wrong. No cancer, no stroke, no bleeding, no infection. The doctors are baffled, we are baffled but jeez the relief was indescribable. Yes she is still seriously ill with the cancer but I feel as if we have been given her back again. Being able to sit and talk to her as normal again is wonderful and I hope we don't have to go through that nightmare again. Each day since then she has become brighter and more talkative, if a little tired. Her eating isn't anywhere near normal and she is fed up being stuck in bed but she is back to where she was just before she went into hospital.
So, the plan is to get her back home at some point. They want to work on getting us more support at home from medical and social services so we can care for her at home plus they want to get her stronger in herself. It will take weeks but we should get her home again which would be great for all of us. It's amazing the difference a week can make.
Naturally I have got no reading done this week and I had no real interest in doing anything. I'm hoping that I will get that motivation back again. Hopefully things will settle a bit now!